My head co-teacher wants to know whether I intend to renew my contract. We're meeting after classes today to discuss it. He needs to know by May, but I plan on telling him this afternoon that I don't intend to renew after my contract expires in August (which I already knew since October but kept it from him).
The main reason I wanted to keep it from him until the last minute is because of anything that they may try to spring on me because I'm leaving. I've heard of some bad stories where the schools would pile on as much work as possible on the native teacher before he/she leaves town. I want to avoid that, although I don't think it'll happen.
I'm just terrified of what to do for a job once I get back to Canada. Will there be jobs anywhere? Will I be able to find something? What if there are no jobs? What if nobody wants to hire me? What if I don't have enough qualifications?
Sometimes I'm quite sure the anxiety I feel over here isn't due to living in a foreign country, but rather by the concerns and worries of what I'll face once I get back.
Monday, April 12, 2010
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Hey A,
ReplyDeleteI understand what you're going through. I was asked the same thing, but won't be giving an answer till Friday. It's the same as yours. It sucks... the whole anxiety thing, doesn't it?
Hang in there, though. I'm sure something will pan out, leading to another great adventure for you! :)
Cheers!!
I was going to tell them next month, but the school wanted to know this week. I could've postponed it a bit later, but now seemed like a good time.
ReplyDeleteI was confident the head co-teacher would keep this under wraps from the others until later, because he's taking a training semester in the US in September as well, and wanted me to keep quiet about it as well. So we're both on the same boat; if he tells anyone about my plans, I'll tell everyone about HIS plans. Call it blackmail if you want, haha.
One thing you may not expect is that your eyes may water up once you reveal the decision. It was weird, because I wasn't expecting that to happen. I guess despite all the things I want to go home to, there are always some things here that are hard to let go of. Saying your decision out loud to someone other than another native English teacher really makes it feel final and etched in stone.